Post by Shana Shay on Jan 19, 2007 20:33:45 GMT
Friends Mean What?....
"Hey.. Names Shana Shay, all of you who actually know me might know me as the shy girl , but ya know I may be kind of popular and I like that, but I have some great friends. The best part of Crystal Falls is there are people here who understand me like Craig and Essie just to name a few. They have lockers right next to mine and in 10 years who knows who those lockers will belong to. Being labeled popular is not something I would endorse on myself because it's other people who label me. You can be popular and have tons of people around you and still feel as alone as I do now. I guess there is just something missing.. Don't get me wrong I love my friends and I would do anything for them just sometimes I don't feel connected to them. Maybe because I haven't known them very long..
As for being shy that kind of went away when I came here and met people. After awhile I began to open up and soon get to talk with people I would have never talked to. I think I have just overcome something and my friends helped me do it. It was rather nice to accomplish that. Just a message to everyone watching if you feel shy and just don't feel like putting yourself out there.. Do it because you won't regret it, I didn't and I sure like where it got me now. In 10 years who knows I may be even further along those lines.
To all my friends that are hopefully still my friends, I want ya to know you were the ones that dug me out of a deep hole that I had been trying to get out of for years. You see, I used to cut myself, I have scars all over my forearm. When I was a freshman, I knew absolutely no one. I felt like an outcast and people never knew who I was and I began cutting myself because I couldn't take it I had a problem with being ignored. But.. Then I met my friends and they began making me a lot happier that I had been and then one day one of em found out and they helped me to stop and I am glad they did because I was certainly not proud of myself for those moments and to people who feel this way I am sorry. Just hang in there..
Well, Thats all I have, hopefully in 10 years my life will be as great as it is now. I have lots of friends and great role models for myself to look up to and its great because it's a lot of fun.. Hey Craig, Essie I hope you guys are doing great, as well as for all my friends, all of you helped me out through High School and I hope we can continue to help each other out cause friends mean a lot in life.. You two will always be my locker buddies...
[x] Shana, The popular but lonely girl
