Post by Rachel Stone on Jan 13, 2007 20:51:41 GMT
T.H. White once said..."Perhaps we give the best of our hearts uncritically...To those who hardly think about us in return."
As far as im concerned, I'm not looking for love right now. Why?
Because it's senior year.
In a few months, im going to be writting my diploma exams, recieving letters from the school I applied to, and packing my bags in order to leave Crystal Falls. Its just happened to be bad timing when Luke kissed me...Or when I talked to Jeremy about our old flame..Or when Craig took me to dinner and told me that he still had feelings for me. Bad timing, thats all it was. But is that stopping me from spilling my heart out in here about it?
Its like I said. Where do I go from here? Falling in love or deciding to date someone right now, just doesnt seem like a good plan. What'll happen if it lasts longer than I expected? Im plan on leaving Crystal Falls...I dont want to make it any harder than it has to be, thats all Im saying.
Not to mention that dating doesn't appeal to me lately.
Since High School started, I haven't been able to hold one single steady boyfriend. Hearing the 'just friends' speech...It hurts more than ever. And what hurts even more than that is that each and every time, I fall for it. I dont fight for what I want. Im only seventeen, and I know im not looking for, nor have I found 'the one' but it wouldn't kill for someone to take a chance with me would it?
Anyways, on a much more...Complicated note, Craig broke up with Haley. Why? Well apparently I was part of the reason. Now I have a problem. I told Luke, that night at the club, that I couldn't do it. I couldn't fall for him, because I wasn't ready. But that wasn't quite the truth. Here I am, confessing part of my feelings for Craig, that will always be there might I add, while im telling Luke that I can't date anyone right now. How am I supposed to explain myself? And now that Haley knows about me and Craig, and seeing as shes best friends with Luke...Shes bound to tell him.
It hurts to have my heart broken more than once, but when im the one doing the breaking...I wish I was the one with the tools to fix it.
Yours Truly,
/♥/ Rachel \♥\
As far as im concerned, I'm not looking for love right now. Why?
Because it's senior year.
In a few months, im going to be writting my diploma exams, recieving letters from the school I applied to, and packing my bags in order to leave Crystal Falls. Its just happened to be bad timing when Luke kissed me...Or when I talked to Jeremy about our old flame..Or when Craig took me to dinner and told me that he still had feelings for me. Bad timing, thats all it was. But is that stopping me from spilling my heart out in here about it?
Its like I said. Where do I go from here? Falling in love or deciding to date someone right now, just doesnt seem like a good plan. What'll happen if it lasts longer than I expected? Im plan on leaving Crystal Falls...I dont want to make it any harder than it has to be, thats all Im saying.
Not to mention that dating doesn't appeal to me lately.
Since High School started, I haven't been able to hold one single steady boyfriend. Hearing the 'just friends' speech...It hurts more than ever. And what hurts even more than that is that each and every time, I fall for it. I dont fight for what I want. Im only seventeen, and I know im not looking for, nor have I found 'the one' but it wouldn't kill for someone to take a chance with me would it?
Anyways, on a much more...Complicated note, Craig broke up with Haley. Why? Well apparently I was part of the reason. Now I have a problem. I told Luke, that night at the club, that I couldn't do it. I couldn't fall for him, because I wasn't ready. But that wasn't quite the truth. Here I am, confessing part of my feelings for Craig, that will always be there might I add, while im telling Luke that I can't date anyone right now. How am I supposed to explain myself? And now that Haley knows about me and Craig, and seeing as shes best friends with Luke...Shes bound to tell him.
It hurts to have my heart broken more than once, but when im the one doing the breaking...I wish I was the one with the tools to fix it.
Yours Truly,
/♥/ Rachel \♥\
