Post by Essie Anderson on Jan 13, 2007 22:59:59 GMT
Alright here's an update that has probably been long awaited for, drumroll please. Anyways, I have a lot going on, and I am getting so confused on what I should do, because I told Craig that I liked him, and all of that and it turns that that he likes Rachel. Plus, he broke up with Haley which means that if I really wanted to I could date him, but I'm not brave enough to ask him to even just one date yet. Yeah, we're best friends, and he is the closest and not to meantion the coolest out of all of them, but still.
I know that Rachel got kissed by Luke because he told me at the mall one day, and Luke seemed so happy about it, and I really don't know if I should be the barrior of bad news or not. I mean, he seemed too happy about it, and I didn't want to hurt that poor guy at all. He has gone through a lot of stuff, and probably a lot more than I ever had in all my years on this Earth. I myself, haven't been in the love drama that my friends have all of the time, and now that I am in it what am I going to do?
The last time I trusted a guy more than I have trusted Craig all they did was hurt me, and it proved to me that dating is a pointless thing to do, or at least I thought that for awhile. I don't want to go through all of that pain all over again now since I am a senior and my heart has been fixed over these last four years too. Speaking of my heart, the doctors said that my medicene will be in tomorrow, and that means that I can play basketball with Craig and the guys again. That also means that I have to beat that bet that I gave Craig not too long ago too, and of course that was also when I admitted that I liked him.
Me and Jeremy haven't talked at all since last year, and honestly if I would have talked to him again I think it would just make me even more confused than I am now. I don't know what's going on with him, and something tells me that I am better off not knowing about that at this moment anyways, and I hope that Haley can tell me what's going on when we talk later. I'll talk to Elizabeth about all of this too, and I'll see what she says I should do, even though I am usually the one that helps her.
I can't ask anyone else about it though, because all that would happen if I told the others would that they would blab my plans to Craig, and the whole thing would be completely ruined if I do plan anything. All I seem to do is sit on the side lines, and be afraid of all of the things that are going on around me, and now I have to face it all head on.
Sincerely,
Essie Anderson
I know that Rachel got kissed by Luke because he told me at the mall one day, and Luke seemed so happy about it, and I really don't know if I should be the barrior of bad news or not. I mean, he seemed too happy about it, and I didn't want to hurt that poor guy at all. He has gone through a lot of stuff, and probably a lot more than I ever had in all my years on this Earth. I myself, haven't been in the love drama that my friends have all of the time, and now that I am in it what am I going to do?
The last time I trusted a guy more than I have trusted Craig all they did was hurt me, and it proved to me that dating is a pointless thing to do, or at least I thought that for awhile. I don't want to go through all of that pain all over again now since I am a senior and my heart has been fixed over these last four years too. Speaking of my heart, the doctors said that my medicene will be in tomorrow, and that means that I can play basketball with Craig and the guys again. That also means that I have to beat that bet that I gave Craig not too long ago too, and of course that was also when I admitted that I liked him.
Me and Jeremy haven't talked at all since last year, and honestly if I would have talked to him again I think it would just make me even more confused than I am now. I don't know what's going on with him, and something tells me that I am better off not knowing about that at this moment anyways, and I hope that Haley can tell me what's going on when we talk later. I'll talk to Elizabeth about all of this too, and I'll see what she says I should do, even though I am usually the one that helps her.
I can't ask anyone else about it though, because all that would happen if I told the others would that they would blab my plans to Craig, and the whole thing would be completely ruined if I do plan anything. All I seem to do is sit on the side lines, and be afraid of all of the things that are going on around me, and now I have to face it all head on.
Sincerely,
Essie Anderson
