Post by Essie Anderson on Dec 26, 2006 22:32:57 GMT
Dear Dairy,
Well, where do I start all of this at the begining or where I am. Oh what the heck, I'll start at the begining! I am originaly from Wichita Kansas, and I lived there for 13 and a half years or at least somewhere around that amount of time. For awhile I loved where I used to live a lot, and then I started to go to elementery school, and my life turned into a hell on Earth.
Those years are probably the worse ones that I ever had in my entire life, and I started to have a hard time trusting those people that were around me since they always hurt me. What made the whole thing worse in the end was the fact that someone who was supposidly there for me left me alone to have no one around for two years. That whole time my heart was broken into pieces, and there was nothing that I could do about it. Then I went to middle school and it was a little bit better you could say I guess.
I always had these people that picked on me, because I was different from the rest of the crowd and the whole time I thought the reason was, because my parents were married. There were a couple of guys that harrassed me, because they always picked on me and hurt me with rubber bands. As the end of eigth grade was drawing closer I called a girl a pregnant dog and then they slapped me. That girl had always been hurting me, and taking my stuff away from me for the fun of it.
The worse part of all was that the students in the class thought that I desirved to be slapped, and that caused the thoughts that make me cry and make me evily happy at the same time. I wanted to kill all of them so they would leave me alone, and they would never ever hurt me again. That is what I told them too, but I didn't get in trouble for my actions and nothing was done about my problems. The question I always ask myself is why was nothing done about it?
Therefore, I hate volence, I hate when people hurt other people in any way, shape, or form no matter if I like the person or not, no one desirves the pain that I felt. I finally got that second chance that I wanted here at Crystal Falls of course since this is where I am currently staying, and have been for the past four years now. At first I was really afaird that I would be treated the same way that I had been at my old schools, but then I got my first real best friend Craig. What can I say about Craig Edward Scott? He's sweet and kind and I love the guy to death.
He has made his mistakes but I forgive him for very single one of them, and I like him as more than a friend and I think he doesn't know that yet. My freshman year I would say was probably the best year that I ever had, and I wish that I would have told Craig how much I care now, soooo bad. If I could go back in time and change it; I would. I just don't know what I should tell him about what is going on in my head, and that is not normal.
Then of course, came our Sophomore year, and I met Haley Lovell; another one of my best friends, and the second one that I have ever had. She is more of the bookworm type, but she is cool and she loves music just as much as I do. She after awhile took my chance away from me ever dating Craig anytime soon when they started dating, and they are still going strong. It's not that I want to break them up or anything; I just have another regret to add to my list of regrets
So here we are back to where I am now of course. I still like Craig, and you could say that I love Craig which is probably true, but like I can say that now. I just want things to some how work for the better, and I want to tell him about my feelings about him it's just I have a hard time saying the right Word to change to to change tos and catching him at the right time. I just hope that things change in a good way, and as long as he knows and we stay friends and Haley stays friends with me, it's all ok.
Sincerely these letters are written,
Essie Anderson
Well, where do I start all of this at the begining or where I am. Oh what the heck, I'll start at the begining! I am originaly from Wichita Kansas, and I lived there for 13 and a half years or at least somewhere around that amount of time. For awhile I loved where I used to live a lot, and then I started to go to elementery school, and my life turned into a hell on Earth.
Those years are probably the worse ones that I ever had in my entire life, and I started to have a hard time trusting those people that were around me since they always hurt me. What made the whole thing worse in the end was the fact that someone who was supposidly there for me left me alone to have no one around for two years. That whole time my heart was broken into pieces, and there was nothing that I could do about it. Then I went to middle school and it was a little bit better you could say I guess.
I always had these people that picked on me, because I was different from the rest of the crowd and the whole time I thought the reason was, because my parents were married. There were a couple of guys that harrassed me, because they always picked on me and hurt me with rubber bands. As the end of eigth grade was drawing closer I called a girl a pregnant dog and then they slapped me. That girl had always been hurting me, and taking my stuff away from me for the fun of it.
The worse part of all was that the students in the class thought that I desirved to be slapped, and that caused the thoughts that make me cry and make me evily happy at the same time. I wanted to kill all of them so they would leave me alone, and they would never ever hurt me again. That is what I told them too, but I didn't get in trouble for my actions and nothing was done about my problems. The question I always ask myself is why was nothing done about it?
Therefore, I hate volence, I hate when people hurt other people in any way, shape, or form no matter if I like the person or not, no one desirves the pain that I felt. I finally got that second chance that I wanted here at Crystal Falls of course since this is where I am currently staying, and have been for the past four years now. At first I was really afaird that I would be treated the same way that I had been at my old schools, but then I got my first real best friend Craig. What can I say about Craig Edward Scott? He's sweet and kind and I love the guy to death.
He has made his mistakes but I forgive him for very single one of them, and I like him as more than a friend and I think he doesn't know that yet. My freshman year I would say was probably the best year that I ever had, and I wish that I would have told Craig how much I care now, soooo bad. If I could go back in time and change it; I would. I just don't know what I should tell him about what is going on in my head, and that is not normal.
Then of course, came our Sophomore year, and I met Haley Lovell; another one of my best friends, and the second one that I have ever had. She is more of the bookworm type, but she is cool and she loves music just as much as I do. She after awhile took my chance away from me ever dating Craig anytime soon when they started dating, and they are still going strong. It's not that I want to break them up or anything; I just have another regret to add to my list of regrets
So here we are back to where I am now of course. I still like Craig, and you could say that I love Craig which is probably true, but like I can say that now. I just want things to some how work for the better, and I want to tell him about my feelings about him it's just I have a hard time saying the right Word to change to to change tos and catching him at the right time. I just hope that things change in a good way, and as long as he knows and we stay friends and Haley stays friends with me, it's all ok.
Sincerely these letters are written,
Essie Anderson